We all love that feeling of completing a task in good time. Ahhh, the feeling. Of accomplishment, success, freedom, ticking off boxes, time well spent.
Now that I have time, and time that needs to be made the most of, I am thinking up things to do like crazy. Things I can do that has to be done (it has been on the to-do list for ages), things to satisfy me-time, things that my kids can do to keep them out of trouble and pesting each other, things that will bring the family together, or make us feel that we have come a long way in terms of bonding. Last night the thing to do was watching a movie together as a family - not with the purpose to teach us something or make us cry or laugh - just one to let us bond in front of the television.
It turned out to be total, complete waste of time. Not funny, not sad, not good, not particularly causing a warm fuzzy bonding feeling - the only thing it did was to let the clock tick from 21:00 to 23:00 - time for bed. And the movie thing on the list ticked off at least.
It made me think of how we value time spent on things. I guess time spent well is when you can look back and see that you have done something. Or better if you have completed something. Or maybe if you have at least progressed with something. Are those sweet, silent hours of nothingness time well spent? Is blogging here a complete waste of time because I don't have hundreds of followers or I don't see how women's lives become better?
I will keep on blogging, because I learn and discover things about myself and the world around me, about God, in the quiet time I set out for myself. I will keep on running, because the clouds have different patterns every time and I will keep on reading the same verses of the same Bible, because every time I discover something new that God has prepared for me in that quiet time.
The biggest waste... is therefore not the time spent on sweet nothings... but the waste of time while doing them. If you don't use your time, no matter what you are doing, to listen, to learn, to grow or to discover... it is probably a complete waste of time.
If you don't use your time to listen, to learn, to grow or to discover... it is probably a complete waste of time.
I am looking forward to sitting on the couch with God this week. Just sitting. Because even if I don't have the words to pray, or the courage to cry, or the notes to sing, or the discipline to study the text, I have time. And it is time well spent with God. As for the total disappointment of a movie, it didn't achieve the purposes I had in mind, but I guess it wasn't such a complete waste of time after all... because I definitely learned what we as a family don't like that type of movies. And next time we will be much more cautious.
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